Monday, November 30, 2009

Remembering A Year Ago

Did you know there is a very certain odor in the hospital? I will never forget the distinct scent when the double doors opened to the Pediatrics Unit for Hannah to be admitted one year ago today.

It was a year ago today, the Monday after Thanksgiving, that I took Hannah to the doctor to get checked & have blood drawn to see why she had so many bruises. I remember driving West on the 210 Freeway when the doctor reached me on my cell phone just a few hours after our morning appointment. I remember him saying things like " Hannah is very ill probably not leukemia but something very serious ... get to the hospital, pack a teddy bear, you will probably sleep over at least a few nights." What he should have said was: TAKE YOUR CALENDAR & THROW IT INTO THE BLENDER, YOUR LIFE HAS JUST BEEN HIT BY A BUS! Hannah was in-patient for such a long time!!!!

How has it been a year?

I don't know but it's been a full year & I am standing here today as a complete testament to God's amazing grace. It is only His strength that has carried all of us through. He is so faithful & on this day of Hannah's Aplastic-versary, I have to say: THANK YOU, LORD!

Thank you that my girl is here to decorate the tree, to sleep in the same room as her sister, to have gone 2 months now without a transfusion, to be in an acting class, to say to me a million times a day "look at me, Mom", & of course, to drive me crazy in so many ways. :-)

My heart is so grateful to the Lord for all He has carried us through during these past 12 months. God is faithful.

No matter what you are going through today -- NO MATTER WHAT -- He is there. If you will let Him, He will carry you through. I know this for a fact. I know this as a mom who went for a long time living on a hospital unit with my 7 year old attached to an IV pole. I know God is faithful & He is my loving, kind & caring Heavenly Father that I can trust NO MATTER WHAT.

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"As for me, I will always have hope; I will praise You more & more. My mouth will tell of Your righteousness, of Your salvation all day long, though I know not its measure." Psalm 71:14-15

"The Lord reigns, He is robed in majesty; the Lord is robed in majesty and is armed with strength. The world is firmly established; it cannot be moved. Your throne was established long ago; You are from all eternity." Psalm 93:1-2

4 comments:

  1. Ok.. I am crying and you are a true meaning of what Strength is...
    I can't believe it has been a year..
    You are a very strong and amazing women..
    Let there be a end in near site..
    HUGS..
    Happy HOlidays..
    Sooo happy that Hannah is home ...

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  2. Debbie, I remember reading your blog back then and your families story certainly ministered to our hearts, we were still on the fence with the whole adoption thing, espicaly with our oldest child in and out of the hospital all the time! But after reading your blogs I felt the Lord speaking to my heart and encouraging our family! That when we are weak and broken He is strongest! I can't thank you enough for sharing your journey! I know that our Heavenly Father used you to encourage our journey to our sweet baby Addison! I pray the Lord will pour out his richest blessings on you and yours!
    Kim

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  3. A whole year already? What a wild ride it's been full of lots of trials and lots of blessings. I am overjoyed for Hannah & your dear family! So much to be thankful for!

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  4. I can't believe it has been a year! Praise God for His faithfulness! Hannah & your family have been in my thoughts and prayers. May you have a wonderful, blessed and special holiday season!

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